BFP!

The sticks don't lie - neither does the beta test which came in at 305 yesterday - it's official!  I am definitely pregnant.  Let there be dancing in the street, a thousand piece brass band, and the Hallelujah Chorus played.

Yes, you may have noticed that those are home tests (HPT) and that is initially how we found out.  The blood test confirmed what I already knew and I'm glad we did it my way, even though one of us wasn't too keen on the idea and wanted to wait.  We found out in the privacy of our own home without waiting for a phone call from a medical professional.  We found out the way millions of couples get to find out: in an intimate moment, independent of medications and injections and worry.  For two whole days, it was our sweet secret -- that's something we haven't had in a very, very long time and probably won't have again.

We got to ease in to the life-changing news gradually and celebrate when we got the call from Anne at 7:45 AM Sunday morning to confirm our joy. 

And then that joy turned to something resembling this:

Wait, is this really happening?  Are we going to be parents?  305 did she say?  Could it be...twins?  Or one incredible hulk baby?  Well, that explains why I've been craving onions for five days...And my face?  I've got some serious Asian Flush going on. 

So many thoughts go flashing through your head that it's exhausting.  You're elated and in denial at the same time like this somehow isn't possible ...surely you don't mean, me, do you?  After everything we've been through, a year on our own trying with no luck and the past 8 months with assistance, just hoping to make it to transfer one day, this is it.  Poof.  I'm pregnant.  In a weird way, it seems like someone sprinkled fairy dust and that was all it took - just close your eyes and wish it true.  In reality, we fought long and hard for this and will continue to fight for these little lives that have taken up residence inside me.  

Yesterday was Day 1 of my fourth week (confusing, yes, but they count from your last menstrual cycle) so the helpful food-size comparison for the week is a poppy seed.  They aren't considered fetuses yet but the embryos will be visible on a sonogram next week when they grow to the size of a sesame seed.  We have the makings of an everything bagel here, don't we?